Reasons why i fucking hate myself
1- i dont think im good looking
2- i dont think im a good person
3- i dont think i deserve happiness
4- i believe people hate me and it sucks
5- i legit got all the worst genetics from both of my parents like having a small dick having serious mental issues having an awful metabolism
Theres probably more but i wont get into that right now
Anxious irrattional fears that some have a base to go off of and it scares me
1- actually feel like i have no chance finding anybody and it sucks because i really am just out here looking for someone that gets me and i just want love like being in a relationship is nice cuddling is awesome sex would be nice but you know im mr small dick fucking 4 inches at full mast so who wants that like???? And society doesnt help with this considering as a man youre expected to have a massive dick and if you dont youre fucking useless as a guy you have to be fit be attractive be smart and confident and im just none of those things and everything just culminates into my mess of a brain ive had to talk myself down from killing myself 2 times in the past 2 days i have never had the urge to self harm until recently but its so hard to ignore
2- talking about sex or even bringing it up makes me so uncofortable i hate it ever since middle school its always just been “do you have a big dick if you do youre deserving of
everything if you dont go off yourself and honestly thats how i feel like the societal expectations of men are too much for me and i just wanna die because im so sick of feeling this way and having thoughts like this i just want to end it2- i have a crush on a girl and it just feels impossible and i feel like i have no chance with her and it sucks it sucks sososososo much i hate it she also lives 6 hours away and that also sucks bigtime i think shes mad at me too because of the way i am towards myslef which is even more upsetting
